This episode is all about the heartbreak spiral—those messy, painful weeks after a breakup when nothing feels real and you're not sure how to be a person again.

We talk about:

• - Why breakups hit like emotional whiplash and why it’s okay to just not be okay

• - The loop of “what did I do wrong?” and how to stop feeding it

• - How to support a friend in heartbreak without rushing their healing or offering advice they didn’t ask for

• - The moment when self-love looks like crying on the floor with sad music, and why that’s still healing

• - What creative expression can unlock when you're heartbroken and cracked open

• - Why you can’t always trust your thoughts in the middle of grief (and who to borrow clarity from)

• - How this pain can actually lead you to a more honest version of yourself, if you let it

• This one’s for anyone sitting in the quiet after everything changed, whether you're grieving a person, a future, or the version of yourself you thought you’d be with them. You’re not too much, too broken, or too behind. You’re just in it. And that’s enough.

  
  

  Chapters:(00:00) When the Breakup Hits: Shock, Withdrawal & Grief(03:00) All the Triggers: Abandonment, Shame, and Blame(06:00) Why Your Thoughts Might Be Lying to You(09:30) The Inner Critic After Loss(13:00) Holding Space Without Fixing(15:00) Using Sadness as a Creative Spark(17:00) Self-Care That Doesn’t Feel Like Self-Care Yet(20:00) Asking for What You Actually Need(22:00) Letting the Heartbreak Change You

  
  

  Follow Us:⁠Jonathan⁠⁠Rachel⁠

In this episode, we explore the messy middle of healing, dating, and staying true to yourself, especially when the urge to help others starts to blur your own boundaries.

We talk about:

- What You on Netflix reveals about narcissistic dynamics and how love can be weaponized

- Why being seen can feel both healing and triggering, and what to do when you don’t feel it in your relationships

- The line between people-pleasing and compassion, and how to tell when you’re crossing it

- A surprisingly deep conversation about judgment, and how it's often a signal from a part of you trying to keep you safe

- How media like The 100, Black Mirror, and Mr. Robot reflect back our collective spiritual growth

- The slow, uncomfortable practice of choosing what’s aligned for you, especially when it means disappointing someone else

This episode is for anyone navigating the in-between: holding space for your own growth while figuring out how to relate to others with more honesty, self-trust, and love. If you’ve ever struggled to choose yourself without guilt, this one’s for you.

Chapters:

(00:00) Intro & Netflix’s You: Narcissism and the Mind of Joe Goldberg

(02:45) Weaponized Love and the Illusion of Being Seen

(05:58) Unpacking Transactional Love vs. Overflowing Self-Worth

(09:12) Boundaries, People-Pleasing, and the Urge to Help

(12:27) Parts Work on Judgment: Protection vs. Shame

(15:36) A Bad Date, Compassion Fatigue & Choosing Alignment

(19:02) Noticing the Shift: How One Draining Date Changes Everything

(21:44) Feeling Seen in Real-Time and Why It’s So Rare

(24:11) The Mirror of Relationships: Using Conflict for Growth

(28:32) TV as Therapy: The 100, Black Mirror, and the Rise of Conscious Storytelling

(32:59) Receiving Love Without Expectation: The Challenge of True Support

(36:10) Abandonment Wounds, Emotional Safety & Self-Expression

(40:04) Why We Judge: Parts Work, Projection, and Inner Criticism

(44:23) Spiritual Reflection: The Hero’s Journey and the Loop of Worth

(49:17) Soul Contracts, Synchronicity, and Why Some Connections Stick

(52:33) Gratitude, Growth, and Closing Reflections

Follow Us:

Jonathan

Rachel

Ever left a therapy session feeling hopeless, like you’re the problem, and no one’s really telling you how to change it?

In this episode, Rachel and Jonathan open up about their frustrations with traditional talk therapy and the feeling that insight alone often isn’t enough to truly heal. What unfolds is a powerful conversation about two very different perspectives on trauma: Rachel speaks from the emotional body - the felt experience of pain, abandonment, and healing through embracing the stories and identities. Jonathan comes from the angle of false identities - how our subconscious programming keeps us stuck in cycles we never chose and how to rewire our subconscious to recognize the "false" identities and choose differently.

Their views don’t always align, and that’s the point. This episode unpacks the tension between feeling your way through pain and reframing the stories that define you. It’s honest, challenging, and yes, maybe even a little polarizing.

If you’ve ever wondered why therapy hasn’t fully helped or what else might be out there, this one’s for you.

Chapters:

(00:00) – Opening Reflection

(00:47) – Why Talk Therapy Can Fall Short

(01:26) – The "Low Vibe" Debate

(02:48) – Parent Love or Parent Programming?

(04:15) – The Danger of Over-Identifying with the Why

(06:45) – Validation vs. Reframing

(11:00) – Subconscious Programming and Identity

(18:00) – Language Matters: Abandoned vs. Left

(23:00) – Owning the Journey