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  • life is supposed to be uncomfortable (unfortunately)

    life is supposed to be uncomfortable (unfortunately)
    2024/03/30

    [ep 13] am I too resistant to the natural discomforts of life? is that resistance making my life harder than it needs to be? we all know that mindset is everything…but this is a complicated issue when you take depression and other human pains into consideration because we feel we experience discomfort enough. can we make room in our lives to accept that life is inherently uncomfortable? I think this necessary acceptance can allow us to face the inevitable obstacles and mundaneness of life.

    modern day life has offered us reprieve from the challenges our ancestors faced and has elevated the human experience…but where there is more pleasure, there is more pain


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    45 分
  • i'm isolating and I don't care!!!

    i'm isolating and I don't care!!!
    2024/02/29

    [ep 12] I’ve been isolating. if you have been too…you shouldn’t feel bad about it. today I’ll share what my isolation has been looking like.

    being around people I can’t show my full self to is exhausting. I’m over here busy trying to keep my mental afloat which makes it hard to socialize or listen to other people’s unrelatable and relatively ordinary drama. would I prefer to have close ones to be with? of course! but finding good people that understand you is hard, and I don’t have the extra energy to expend to find them when I don’t even know that it will pay off. people have definitely made me feel bad about myself for living this way, especially as someone in their 20s, but I’m here to tell you that there is nothing wrong with it.



    I care about you and I support you.
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    35 分
  • what is the meaning of life?

    what is the meaning of life?
    2024/02/05

    [ep 11] why are we here? why does anything exist? these questions are something that everyone has thought about and some more often than others. not knowing the meaning of life used to drive me into anxious states of panic. fortunately, i’m at a point where I have gathered enough questions, answers, and theories to form some grounding beliefs about life and the universe. today I will be sharing my thoughts to perhaps give you some answers, reaffirm your own beliefs, plant some seeds for new ideas, and pique some questions within yourself. of course, this will involve discussing the dynamics of modern day life and the human condition

    time stamps:  4:11 - my theory on the meaning of life 14:07 - why does it feel like we are chasing something? 43:12 - God? 1:01:26 - a higher power and metaphysics 1:14:47 - existentialism
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    1 時間 26 分
  • i'm tired of perpertually hitting lows - SOC

    i'm tired of perpertually hitting lows - SOC
    2024/01/25
    [ep 10] SOC=stream of conciousness episode. me unfiltered with no episode plan. just speaking my mind in what I can see now in retrospect was an anxiety episode. a night where I am so sick of feeling like shit. I'm trying my best to do better for myself and things go up and up and then I am back at the bottom again. how many times can I hit the bottom and still have the energy to get up? I'll let you into my psyche during this moment. you know why? because when I am going crazy, it would be nice to know that other people were going crazy too. I hope this makes you feel less alone in your crazy I talk about God, catastrophizing during anxious moments, my brain being convinced I can think my way out of my problems (when thinking only makes things worse), the war between 'what I think I should do' vs. 'what actually helps', deescalating from an anxiety episode, and lows being a fire under your ass that give you motivation you're awesome for listening and know that you are my friend and are not alone.
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    39 分
  • accept or resist - the 2 option dilemma

    accept or resist - the 2 option dilemma
    2024/01/18
    [ep 9] we have 2 options in life - to resist what is happening to us or to accept it; I call this the 2 option dilemma. by conceptualizing our nature to toggle between the two of them, I better understand the way I operate. intellectualizing emotions helps to bring a greater sense of calm and control over my life because I am understanding my emotions and nature rather than being overwhelmed by a wave of it. resistance is usually me overwhlemed by the uncomfort of my reality and not wanting to exist at all and acceptance is when I am ready to persist and work for a better tomorrow. let's talk more about it. you don't wanna? ugh, well I think you should listen anyway
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    30 分
  • "feelers" face ugly truths of reality and cowards hide

    "feelers" face ugly truths of reality and cowards hide
    2024/01/11

    [ep 8] reading a journal entry from start to finish - no intro or outro.

    being in touch with your emotions and thoughts can be perceived as being weak. after minorly opening up to someone about my struggles this person started preaching about discipline and strength of mind. this person is only one of many with the same out-of-touch sentiment I've heard so many times and even had myself once...I think this interaction inspired this journal entry


    to clarify the part when I say

    "our life's work is more easily fulfilled"... I mean that our perceived purpose in life is no longer just focused on staying alive. this objective feels far beneath us now and we are expectant of ourselves to fulfill things much larger than that. this phenomenon among us shifts our reality from feeling normal and healthy. we search aimlessly for meaning when there is none and we use our extra time to search for extra problems to solve. we are here simply to be...but it's hard to be okay with that. our bodies aren't wired to be okay with just existing just as the trees do - an issue of the modern world
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    6 分
  • dealing with a mental disorder diagnosis

    dealing with a mental disorder diagnosis
    2024/01/04

    [ep 7] receiving a diagnosis can cause a flurry of emotions...fear, embarassment, overwhelm...but you also feel validated and relief. I want to share a little bit of my reaction from my diagnosis with OCD, the thoughts that came to my mind, and how I made myself feel like just another ”normal” human being rather than someone with ”something wrong with them”. what is normal though? no such thing.

    I also discuss how my diagnosis has been SO good for me and my relationship with my OCD. it kind of feels like it’s my turn to talk in group therapy lol if you’re enjoying the podcast, please give my podcast a rating and leave some feedback :) it is super helpful to gauge how helpful the podcast is to you. I appreciate it and I appreciate you!!!
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    35 分
  • how can I justify my suffering?

    how can I justify my suffering?
    2023/12/04
    [ep 6] content warning: passive suicidal ideation, existential crises I have a blend of a nihilist, existentialist, and absurdist view on life — overall believing that life has no inherent meaning. I walk a fine line in this belief because when I’m doing well, this life philosophy feels great! but when I am not doing well...I ask myself ”why am I even enduring this suffering if its for NO REASON? it is not necessary for me to be experiencing life as a human being if it is going to be this painful”.  I’ll take you through my thoughts trying to rationalize pain and a bit of my journey in finding something that has given me a reason to endure the suffering we do as humans. I will discuss how making a positive impact on others is critical to feeling purpose in our lives, the goodness that comes from enduring hardships, and how we can find small things in life that may make us a little more content in being human beings experiencing life. can we have things in life that make us okay with having pain? how can we be more at peace with being alive? let’s talk about it friends thank you for listening and giving me a voice :)
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    1 時間 33 分