if i spoke with dread, its just me. its who i am, who ive always been, and if it somehow managed to hide that from you all this time then, huh, who wouldve thought.

anyway, i think im going to go watch buffy the vampire slayer now.

okokokay, i think im going to address it with him rather than sweeping it under the rug. thats better right? i should do that right?

im too afraid of calling him most likely is im speaking live, im more likely to mess up. so this is what i'll do, i'll just voicenote him on slack. tada!

im not winging it tho, i need a script...

"Hi manager,

i hope im not overthinking this but in case my comment about management mightve hurt your feelings, i didnt want you to carry that into the weekend.

i have this terrible talent of making people feel worse when i intend for the opposite.

Theres no such thing as a perfect manager, but from my experience so far, you truly have been a great manager.

all this goes to say, I may accidentally say the dumb things from time to time out of my own awkwardness, i hope you dont take it to heart, definity a work in progress on my end.

ANyway, i hope you have a great weekend."

okay yall. i sent it. AHHHH this might be super dumb. its stupid and embarrassing.

idk. if he was like my brother he wouldnt havent given a shit and wouldnt have said anything. but i feel like my manager's personality is more similiar to me, where i probably wouldve noticed and been hurt, so its better to mention it than not right?

ughhUGHHHHH

its late, close to 10 and i havent had dinner. but i did snack, all night long, so i guess thats enough and its time for bed.

except i keep scrolling

scrolling

scrolling past midnight.

i am the way i am, blah blah blah.