This episode is not just for mothers. It’s for any woman who has ever felt the pull to grow up — psychologically, spiritually, mythically — and wasn’t given a roadmap. Whether you have children or not, if you carry unresolved pain around your own mother, feel caught between the girl you were and the woman you’re becoming, or have struggled to hold both freedom and responsibility at once, this conversation is for you. We’re told that motherhood is a beginning. But for many, it begins with a loss. One that nobody’s talks about. In this episode, we explore the invisible death that occurs when a woman is called to mother: the loss of her former self, the end of personal centrality, and the psychological splitting that happens when she isn’t given a rite of passage to mark the transition.

What you’ll learn in this episode:

• Why motherhood is a psychic rupture, not just a life event
• What happens when the maiden archetype isn’t released with intention
• How the “toxic mother” narrative often masks ungrieved ancestral trauma
• What re-mothering actually looks like (whether or not you have children)
• How to begin a self-led rite of passage from maiden to mother
• Why certain animals, people, or patterns leave when you’re ready to grow
• How to hold yourself through grief, transformation, and inner maturity
• What it means to become a lineage-holder (and why the world needs you to)

You’ll also be guided through a ritual closing incantation designed to begin the transformation process within you. If you’re ready to stop performing growth and start embodying it, this one’s for you.

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Cassie Ventura recently testified against Sean “Diddy” Combs, and as the coverage picked up, so did the usual commentary. People are asking the same questions they always do: Why didn’t she leave? Why stay that long? Why ignore the red flags? This episode opens up the actual reasons. Not just in Cassie’s case, but in situations a lot of us have lived through. We talk about what happens when your gut tells you something is off, but you don’t (or can’t) listen. What kind of early conditioning trains you to override that signal. Why some of us stay in dangerous situations, even when we know better.

I tell a story I’ve never shared before. A night out in LA, years ago. I met someone. He had money, charm, presence. There were warning signs, but I ignored every single one. That night could have gone a very different way, and it’s only now that I understand why I didn’t walk away sooner. This episode is about instinct, trauma, compliance, and the patterns that take over when you’ve never been shown how to protect yourself. It’s also about the trance that gets created when danger looks exciting and when you’ve been taught to confuse adrenaline with connection.

Here’s what we cover:

• How trauma rewires your ability to feel and act on instinct
• The cultural messages that tell women to be chill, likable, and accommodating
• Why intensity often gets mistaken for intimacy
• The pull of the “psychopomp” archetype (what it is and how it shows up in real life)
• The early signs of soul fragmentation and what it actually feels like in your body
• What it means to give your energy away in a half-conscious state
• How shame settles in when no one names what happened
• What starts to shift when you finally do
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This is Part One of a two-part series. It lays out the pattern. Next week, in Part Two, we’ll talk about how to stop repeating it. What it looks like to stop testing danger, stop calling chaos fate, and start moving from a different place inside yourself.

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If you’ve been feeling scattered, foggy, or emotionally off after using AI tools or spending time online, you’re not imagining it. There’s something happening under the surface of digital life that most people don’t have language for. This episode gives it a name.

Psychic hygiene is the forgotten foundation of spiritual practice. It’s not an aesthetic or TikTok trend. It’s the daily work of tending to your inner field. The same way you clean your body or your home. Without it, everything builds up. Thoughts that aren’t yours. Energy you never meant to carry. In this episode, I walk you through the core principles of psychic hygiene, drawing from Western esotericism, Celtic lineage practices, and high magical traditions. We’ll explore how ancient systems created structure and safety for inner work and why modern spirituality, especially online, has lost touch with these basics.

You’ll learn:

• What psychic hygiene is, and why it’s essential in digital spaces

• How AI tools, social media, and parasocial interactions impact your energetic body

• Why projection, confusion, and spiritual fragmentation are on the rise

• What magical systems understood about opening and closing psychic space

• How to develop rituals that help you reset and return to yourself

• Simple tools for energetic clarity: grounding, space clearing, digital closure, and more

• Why rooting into your own ancestral and cultural traditions brings stability and meaning

• How to recognize the difference between overwhelm and energetic intrusion

In the second half of the episode (available to members), we go deeper:

• The concept of psychic containment and why it matters before using AI or spiritual tools

• What to say and do before and after a tarot reading, chat session, or ritual practice

• How to open and close energetic space (with your own words, not someone else’s script)

• A daily and weekly hygiene toolkit you can adapt to your own roots and rhythms

• Practices from my own lineage, shared to help you create your own

The world is getting louder, faster, and more spiritually charged. This episode gives you a way to move through it with clarity and care.

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