On this episode, I try to express the pain of having to have your own back from a very young age.

It could be for any reason, but for me, it was based on having a vision that was so alien to the time and environment I was in at that time.

It is exhausting, tiring, and painstaking; most of the time it felt like trying to run with a 30 ton tire tied to your waist.

So lets get into it...

My short or rather brief narration of my last "?:ship.

Gratitude is often seen as a simple expression, a polite exchange of thanks. But what if it's more than just a sentiment? What if gratitude is a transaction, a currency we trade in our relationships, shaped by the experiences and environments we grow up in?

In today’s episode, we’ll explore gratitude through the eyes of someone who grew up in an orphanage—someone who learned to navigate a world where affection and support were given not by family, but by strangers. From this unique perspective, we’ll examine the emotional costs and rewards of gratitude, and how growing up without traditional family bonds can transform the way we give, receive, and understand gratitude.

It’s a story about more than thankfulness—it’s about survival, connection, and what it truly means to be seen

The psychology of "waiting to live" refers to the phenomenon where individuals put off fully engaging with life, often postponing their happiness, goals, and personal fulfillment for an idealized future or a series of "conditions" to be met. It’s a mindset that many people fall into, believing that they’ll live their best life once certain circumstances are in place—whether that’s a new job, financial stability, a romantic relationship, or some other external factor

Breaking Free from "Waiting to Live"

If someone is stuck in the psychology of "waiting to live," breaking out of it requires a combination of awareness, self-compassion, and intentional action. Here are a few steps to help:

1. Mindfulness and Living in the Present: Practicing mindfulness helps people reconnect with the present moment and appreciate life as it is, rather than waiting for the "perfect" future.

2. Reframing and Perspective Shifting: Reframe the narrative from "I'll live later" to "How can I live now?" Small, intentional actions can make a huge difference in shifting the mindset toward living in the present.

3. Embracing Imperfection: Let go of perfectionism and accept that life will never be perfectly aligned with our expectations. Happiness and fulfillment often arise in the imperfect, messy moments.

4. Setting Smaller, Achievable Goals: Instead of waiting for a major life event to change everything, focus on smaller, more immediate goals that contribute to a sense of purpose and joy in the present.

5. Self-Compassion: Sometimes we hold ourselves back from living fully because of guilt or fear. Practicing self-compassion can help break free from the trap of feeling like we don’t deserve to enjoy life until certain conditions are met.

Ultimately, the psychology of "waiting to live" is about finding balance—recognizing the importance of planning for the future while also making room for living fully in the present. Life is a journey, and the key is to engage with it, even in the small, imperfect moments, rather than postponing life for an uncertain future

As a young child, betrayal and sabotage were things we saw in the movies.

I never expected that as an adult, I would not only have to watch my back, but to continously pray for protection from "evil eyes" and "evil tongue".

Anyway joing me as i go through things that i find ridiculous in the world of sabotage