The Inner War – Wrestling with Fear, Pride, and Purpose

In this powerful solo episode, Ben opens up about his internal battles — fear, ego, and the search for clarity. What happens when you feel disconnected from your calling? When you know what you’re meant to do, but you’re still holding back?

Ben unpacks the anxiety that comes with performing for approval, the pride that masks our pain, and the moments that forced him to surrender. He speaks candidly about faith, control, and relearning how to walk with God.

If you're navigating uncertainty, resisting your next step, or craving peace in the middle of chaos, this episode will speak directly to your soul.

Topics Covered:

• The emotional and spiritual cost of performance

• What fear really sounds like in our minds

• Why surrender is the starting point of clarity

• The lie of self-reliance and pride

• How faith reorients everything

  ⏱️ Timestamps

  00:00 – Intro
  01:50 – What triggered this inner war
  04:45 – The pressure to perform vs. the desire for purpose
  08:10 – Anxiety and spiritual disconnection
  12:35 – Hiding behind pride and productivity
  17:20 – Surrendering to something bigger
  21:00 – Letting go of control
  25:15 – What fear actually sounds like
  30:20 – How faith breaks the cycle
  35:00 – Identity, legacy, and finding peace
  38:45 – Final thoughts & encouragement

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