In this episode of In Search of More, I sit down with my brother and friend Omar Pinto. We just got back from a men’s retreat, and honestly, we’re still in it—raw, cracked open, figuring it out in real time. We talk about what happens when men actually have space to move, to feel, to drop the act and remember who they are underneath it all. Omar shares his path—addiction, ayahuasca, emotional sobriety, real growth. Not the Instagram version. The kind that costs you something. At one point, Omar talks about a decision he made after a powerful ayahuasca experience—he started drinking again, convinced he was no longer an addict. Three years later, the truth of that choice has come into focus, and he doesn’t shy away from what that reckoning looked like. We get into fatherhood, childhood wounds, old stories we didn’t even know we were still carrying. The quiet ways we check out. And what it takes to come back.

This one’s an invitation—to feel more, hide less, and lead from your gut even when it scares you to the core. If you’re on the path, or trying to be, this one’s for you.

See you on the other side,

Eli

In this episode of In Search of More, I sit down with Levi Shmotkin for a conversation that felt less like an interview and more like a farbrengen—a raw, real, and deeply honest exchange about what it means to grow, to heal, and to live with purpose. We touched on the teachings of the Rebbe, our personal stories, and how the descent—yeridah letzorech aliyah—is often where the real work begins. We didn’t shy away from the hard stuff: addiction, isolation, the pain that comes with family, and the complicated process of reconnecting with yourself and with others.What I appreciated most was how naturally the conversation moved between Chassidic ideas and real-world experience. We spoke about how healing doesn’t mean escaping life, but learning how to show up fully within it—through practices like Shabbat, through structure, through community, and most importantly, through truth. This episode is for anyone who’s ever felt stuck between who they were raised to be and who they’re becoming. If you’re on a path of healing, this one will speak to you.Eli Nash

In this episode of In Search of More, Eli Nash sits down with Moshe Haim Srour for a heartfelt, honest, and at times deeply emotional conversation about what it really means to heal. They talk about everything from childhood trauma and the lasting impact of CPTSD to the daily challenge of showing up for yourself and the people you love. Moshe Haim shares openly about his own journey—how practices like breathwork, deep self-reflection, and leaning into community have helped him come back to himself. They also touch on parenting, and how being present with your kids—really present, not just doing things but being with them—is one of the most healing things you can offer. This episode feels like sitting in on two old friends catching up, unpacking big truths with rawness, laughter, and a whole lot of heart. It’s about trust, connection, and the slow, beautiful work of becoming whole again.