What if the healing you’ve begged God for never comes?

In this vulnerable conversation, Ryan Dawn sits down with author and speaker Brenna Blain (@bunonmyhead) to talk about suffering, mental health, and what it looks like to stay faithful when your prayers aren't answered (at least the way you'd expect). Brenna shares openly about living with bipolar disorder, the pain of unanswered prayers, and the pressure to perform spiritual perfection in Christian spaces.

Together, they unpack:

• Why the Church often doesn’t know what to do with real suffering
• How prosperity gospel lite sneaks into our expectations
• The tension of preaching while struggling
• Why vulnerability isn’t a liability—it's protection
• Finding God in slow, quiet, ordinary healing
• The difference between hoping for rescue and being sustained by presence

This episode is for anyone who’s still hurting and still here. For the ones who keep showing up, not because it’s easy—but because they still believe God is who He says He is.

🎧 Listen wherever you get your podcasts

📘 Grab Brenna’s book ⁠Can I Say That? How Unsafe Questions Lead Us to The Real God⁠

🔗 Follow her at ⁠@bunonmyhead⁠

🎧 Hear more of her story on ⁠With The Perrys⁠ and ⁠The Deep End With Lecrae⁠

In this episode of Holy Heartbreak Podcast, Ryan Dawn Holland sits down with therapist, podcaster, and spiritual mentor Kyle Spears to talk about seeking spiritual maturity both in and out of the church. Together, they unpack the tension between needing therapy and spiritual guidance.

This conversation gets real about:

• When scripture gets weaponized
• What emotionally healthy mentorship really looks like (and how to be a good advisor)
• Why trauma-informed discipleship is essential
• How to find a safe spiritual mentor who won’t try to “fix” you
• And why doing the work—in therapy and in faith—is a vital part of maturing in Christ

Whether you’ve been burned by bad advice, manipulated with Bible verses, or just want to grow into a healthier spiritual life, this episode will help you start unpacking what healing can actually look like. 🔗 Check out Kyle Spears' podcast, Truth, Trauma, Theology → ⁠https://truthtraumatheology.podbean.com/⁠ (or wherever you get your podcasts!!)

In this episode, Ryan Dawn sits down with Pastor and author Matt Walker Thrift to dive deep into the overlooked but fiery book of Obadiah. What starts as a story about an ancient nation’s downfall becomes a mirror—showing us what pride, silence, and spiritual complacency can still do today.

Together, they explore how Edom’s pride became the gateway to injustice, how unchecked ego leads to complicity, and why God’s wrath is actually a radical act of love:

1. A defense of the oppressed
2. A warning to all of us who might become the oppressor

This conversation takes a sharp, honest look at fallen leadership, spiritual pride, and the danger of standing by instead of speaking up—but it doesn’t leave us there. It also offers the hope of humility, community, and a God who invites us to do better.

If you’ve ever wrestled with injustice, spiritual disillusionment, or your own complicity in silence, this one’s for you.

For more, pre-order Pastor Matt Walker Thrift's book “Enemies of the Heart: What the Forgotten Prophet Teaches us About Bitterness, Betrayal, and God’s Justice” ⁠here⁠.

In this heartfelt conversation, Liz Sevigny (@thebald_mom) shares her journey with alopecia, discussing the emotional and spiritual challenges she has faced. From her initial diagnosis at age 12 to the profound impact of hair loss on her self-image and faith, Liz opens up about her struggles and the turning points that led her to share her story online. She emphasizes the importance of community support, vulnerability, and finding confidence beyond physical appearance. Liz also reflects on her relationship with God, and how she processed unanswered prayers and a lack of "physical healing."

Ever feel like everyone else is living your dream life while you're just... trying to hold it together? Same.

In this episode of Holy Heartbreak, Ryan Dawn Holland sits down with Meghan Ryan Asbury (@meghanryanasbury), author of You Are Not Behind, to talk about what it means to live in the tension of unmet expectations, delayed dreams, and that “grass is greener” pressure that constantly whispers: “You’re falling behind.”

Together they dive into:

• Feeling left out of life’s timeline
• What true contentment actually looks like
• How to hold gratitude without faking positivity
• Grieving what never happened (and maybe never will)
• Processing the pain of “dangling carrot” moments with God
• And why celebrating others doesn’t mean you’re losing

If you’re tired of “waiting well,” if comparison has worn you down, or if you're wondering where God is in the middle of your “not yet”—this conversation is a deep breath and a needed reminder: you are not behind.

🎧 Listen wherever you get your podcasts 📚 Grab Meghan’s book: You Are Not Behind 📲 Follow her at: @meghanryanasbury

#youarenotbehind #holyheartbreak #Christianpodcast #spiritualburnout #faithandwaiting #faithandgrief #comparisontrap #hopeandhealing #griefandgratitude

In this season-opening episode of Holy Heartbreak, Ryan Dawn Holland shares her personal story of spiritual exhaustion, heartbreak, and the moment she realized she couldn’t carry her faith on her own anymore.

Drawing from the story of Abraham, Ryan explores how God’s covenant love isn’t dependent on our performance—it’s for the burned out, the doubting, and the deeply weary. This episode speaks to anyone navigating spiritual burnout, unanswered prayers, and the fear that faith might be slipping away.

You’ll also get a preview of what’s coming in Season 2: honest conversations about disappointment, waiting, healing, identity, grief, and what it means to seek God again and again.

If you’re exhausted from doing good, questioning your worth, or wondering if God is still with you—this conversation is your reminder: you are still held, and God’s faithfulness doesn’t give out when you do.

In this conversation, Ryan Dawn and Bryce G explore the profound significance of celebration in the Christian faith. They discuss how celebration serves as a foundation for faith, especially during hardships, and the role of music in fostering remembrance and joy. The dialogue emphasizes the importance of creating a culture of celebration within communities and homes, highlighting personal testimonies and the healing power of shared experiences. They also address misconceptions about celebration, advocating for a more grassroots approach that values intimate gatherings over grand productions. The conversation concludes with scriptural references that anchor the practice of celebration in biblical teachings.

For more on Joyful Noize, you can check out their website here:

https://www.thejoyfulnoize.com/

You can also find DJ Bryce G and Joyful Noize on social media:

https://www.instagram.com/bryceg.707/

https://www.instagram.com/thejoyfulnoize/

In this conversation, Kit shares his transformative journey from a traditional ministry role to founding the Power of Peace Project, which focuses on serving "the least of these", particularly in prison settings. He discusses the challenges he faced, including personal struggles with addiction and shame, and how these experiences led him to a deeper understanding of God's grace and the importance of authenticity. Kit emphasizes the lessons learned from working with incarcerated individuals and the profound impact they have had on his life. He highlights the significance of prayer and vulnerability in the healing process, ultimately encouraging listeners to embrace their weaknesses and seek connection with others.

⁠Order Kit's book here⁠

Check out more from Kit at kitcummings.com