Welcome to the very first episode of Fi(ND)ing Motherhood—a podcast for mothers navigating the unexpected, unspoken, and often unseen transformation that comes with raising a neurodivergent or disabled child.

In this intimate solo episode, I (Kirsten—a matrescence coach, and SEN mum) open up about the moment everything changed: receiving my son’s diagnosis on a Zoom call during the height of the COVID lockdown. From that point on, motherhood no longer looked or felt like what I had imagined—and I began a journey not just of parenting, but of rediscovering myself.

Together, we explore:

• What matrescence really means and why it doesn’t stop after birth

• How diagnosis reshapes identity, grief, and expectations of motherhood

• The weight of the ‘perfect mother myth’—and why it’s time to lay it down

• A powerful moment with a friend that reminded me we don’t need to apologise for our children—or for ourselves

• How to begin giving yourself permission to evolve, soften, and reclaim who you are beyond the role of caregiver

This episode is gentle, reflective, and grounding—woven with journal prompts, moments to pause, and the truth that you are not alone. If you’ve ever felt unseen in the “typical” motherhood stories, this space was made for you.

✨ Grab a cup of tea, take a deep breath, and come sit with me. You don’t have to have it all figured out. You’re allowed to be a work in progress.