In the stories about Borderline Personality Disorder that Mala was familiar with, a borderline woman was always toxic – intense, erratic, angry, manipulative. And she was almost always the villain in someone else’s story. But no one ever talked about the *source* of the intense emotion – what was at the heart of it.

More to read about borderline:

I'm A Black Woman with Borderline Personality Disorder | Business Insider

Why I'm Distancing Myself From My Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis

Diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder Is Often Flawed | Scientific American

(Re)Valuing Borderline Personality Disorder as (Counter) Knowledge | Word & Text: A Journal of Literary Studies and Linguistics

Transcendent Luminescence, Ravaging Flames: On Alexander Kriss’s “Borderline” | Los Angeles Review of Books

How Infinite Jest tethered me to life when I almost let it go | Aeon Essays

Borderline Personality and Self-Understanding of Psychopathology | Psychiatry At the Margins

Either all psychopathology is personality psychopathology or there is no such thing | Psychiatry at the Margins

Transgender and Gender Diverse Patients Are Diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder More Frequently Than Cisgender Patients Regardless of Personality Pathology | Transgender Health

I Have Forgiven Myself for My Pre-Diagnosis Recklessness | by Zuva Seven | An Injustice!

Skill Issues​ | Dialectical Behavior Therapy and Its Discontents

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For Maryam, anorexia was a way to disappear. But outside the institutions meant to cure eating disorders, she learns to resist the binary of recovery or death.

This episode was produced by Maryam Gunja and Phoebe Unter.

And informed by…

Studying Hunger Journals by Bernadette Mayer

Hungry Bengal: War, Famine and the End of Empire by Janam Mukherjee

Saving our own lives: a liberatory practice of harm reduction by Shira Hassan

Unbearable Weight: Feminism, Western Culture, and the Body by Susan Bordo

We need to reject the false narratives around anorexia by Katy Waldman

Strangers Among Us by Rachel Aviv

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Dr. Devon Price talks with NK about 2022’s Unmasking Autism: Discovering the New Faces of Neurodiversity. Masking is a coping strategy, a way that neurodivergent people (especially autistic people) learn to fit into neurotypical society, with uneven success. But like many coping strategies, masking can do more harm than good in the long run – and the act of unmasking is a small act of resistance against conformity.

This episode also includes some clips from Autistic Masking & Unmasking, The 4 Types of Autistic Masking, Twice as Hard: Masking Neurodiversity as Black Women, Discover your neurodivergent masks, and Black and Autistic! The Struggle is Real…

Plus Devon Price recommends Amythest Schaber’s Ask An Autistic series, The Secret Life of a Black Aspie: A Memoir by Anand Prahlad, and Uncomfortable Labels: My Life as a Gay Autistic Trans Woman by Laura Kate Dale.

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If depression isn't caused by a chemical imbalance, why does everyone think it is?

Transcript

WITH:

• P.E. Moskowitz
• Micha Frazer-Carroll

AND INFORMED BY:

Breaking Off My Chemical Romance - The Nation

Many People Taking Antidepressants Discover They Cannot Quit - The New York Times

Emotional Blunting, No Libido, No Life - by P.E. Moskowitz

Keep the antidepressants away. New study says chemical imbalance in brain isn't causing depression - The Economic Times

The Epidemic of Mental Illness: Why? - New York Review of Books

The Illusions of Psychiatry - The New York Review of Books

Mad World: The Politics of Mental Health by Micha Frazer-Carroll

DSM History - Psychiatry.org

How do new disorders get into the DSM? - Slate

Delusions of Progress: Psychiatry’s Diagnostic Manual - Los Angeles Review of Books

“Scientific Nightmare”: The Backstory of the “DSM” - Los Angeles Review of Books

Anatomy of an Epidemic by Robert Whitaker

With Prozac Nation, Elizabeth Wurtzel blew open the memoir as we know it - BBC

Prozac Nation (2001)

Prozac: Revolution in a Capsule - The New York Times

How Prozac entered the lexicon - BBC News

Renamed Prozac Fuels Women's Health Debate - Washington Post

After the Boom, No Reason to Smile - Barron's

Something Happened to U.S. Drug Costs in the 1990s - The New York Times

Conflicts of interest and DSM-5: the media reaction - Speaking of Medicine and Health

Many authors of psychiatry bible have industry ties - New Scientist

Undisclosed financial conflicts of interest in DSM-5-TR: cross sectional analysis - The BMJ

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Samara puts her trust in psychiatry to fix her.

Transcript

WITH:

+ PUPPYBREATH

AND INFORMED BY:

The Ritalin Explosion - PBS FRONTLINE

Anatomy of an Epidemic by Robert Whitaker

Strangers To Ourselves: Unsettled Minds and the Stories That Make Us by Rachel Aviv

Antidepressants rapidly alter brain architecture, study finds - Los Angeles Times

Breaking Off My Chemical Romance - The Nation

The Illusions of Psychiatry - The New York Review of Books

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After Tina’s dad died, she was devastated. But was her grief “disordered”?

Transcript

WITH:

+ Lashanna Williams, A Sacred Passing

+ Dr. Joanne Cacciatore, PhD

AND INFORMED BY:

Dying Without Regrets According to a Death Doula - VICE

Seattle-area grief groups bring mourning into the light - Seattle Times

What's A Mental Disorder? Even Experts Can't Agree - NPR

DSM-5-TR turns normal grief into a mental disorder | Miss Foundation

A History of Prolonged Grief Disorder's Inclusion in the DSM — And What Is Missing From It - Psychiatry At the Margins

Why was prolonged grief disorder added to the DSM? - American Psychiatric Association

How Long Should It Take to Grieve? Psychiatry Has Come Up With an Answer. - The New York Times

Prolonged Grief Is Now Labelled a Disorder. Not All Psychiatrists Agree. - VICE

Impairing Social Connectedness: The Dangers of Treating Grief With Naltrexone - Kara Thieleman, Joanne Cacciatore, Shanéa Thoma

What is good grief support? Exploring the actors and actions in social support after traumatic grief | Miss Foundation

It’s Mourning in America | The New Yorker

How People Of Color Can Experience Grief Differently Than White People | HuffPost Life

Grief, Unmedicated - by P.E. Moskowitz - Mental Hellth

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Rachel tells NK about the pain of her perfectionism, then NK talks to somatics practitioner B. Stepp and artist Yumi Sakugawa about rewriting internal narratives of shame and punishment.

Transcript

WITH:

+ B. Stepp: www.haveheartsomatics.com

+ Yumi Sakugawa: @yumisakugawa

AND INFORMED BY:

The dangerous downsides of perfectionism - BBC

“Multidimensional Perfectionism And DSM-5 Personality Traits” by Joachim Stoeber

Contemplating the Infinite with Annie Dillard - Literary Hub

Silent All These Years: On Annie Dillard - The Millions

Annie Dillard on Creativity and What It Takes to Be a Writer - The Marginalian

Generative Somatics

Want to Fix Your Mind? Let Your Body Talk. - The New York Times

What Your Body Has to Do With Social Change - YES! Magazine

Brené Brown: Can We Gain Strength From Shame? - NPR

The Hidden Stress of Growing Up a Child of Immigrants - VICE

How to Be Less Self-Critical When Perfectionism Is a Trap - The New York Times

I Finally Accepted Nothing Can Be Perfect - VICE

Yumi Sakugawa on shame, hiding, paralysis, and making bad art.

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