Re-using an old episode title to announce that Alina's baby was born, and she's doing great! More to come -- soon! (But we may take a few weeks off.)

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As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.

How I wonder where you are...

Where did our babies go when they died?

To heaven? To the stars? Into the ether? We talk about our thoughts on this existential question and how they've evolved since we became loss moms.

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As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.

Alina is about to welcome a new baby into her family... It's the latest in a long line of leaps of faith that she's taken after losing Quinn in 2021... probably the biggest one yet. Hear how she's feeling about it all in this episode, then send well wishes her way in the comments!

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Follow As Long As I'm Living on Instagram at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@aslongasimlivingpodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, send us an email at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠aslongasimlivingpodcast@gmail.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, or visit us at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠anchor.fm/aslongasimliving⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠! We would love to hear from you!

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As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.

Join us for part 2 of our interview with Dr. Denise Mandel about relationships after baby loss. Part 1 was released last week... Make sure you check that out first!

She answers questions like:

- How does grief affect intimacy and connection, both emotionally and physically?

- Do men and women really grieve differently?

- How do blame and guilt cause tension and resentment between parents, and is there a healthy way to work through those feelings?

- Can couples actually come out of the experience of losing a baby with a stronger relationship?

- ... and so much more!

Dr. Denise is actively recruiting for a new baby loss support group, so if you've been looking for a kind, supportive provider and a warm, welcoming group of bereaved parents... this is your sign! Reach out to her at griefwithdrdenise@gmail.com.

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The information shared in this episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional mental health treatment or therapy. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts and think you may be a danger to yourself, please reach out immediately to the National Suicide Prevention hotline (800-273-8255) in the U.S. ⁠Linked here⁠ are additional resources in the United States. ⁠Linked here⁠ are resources for Canada. ⁠Linked here⁠ are resources for the U.K. ⁠Linked here⁠ are resources for Australia. ⁠Linked here⁠ are global resources. You are not alone.

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Things we talk about in this episode:

-⁠⁠@griefwithdrdenise⁠⁠ on Instagram

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As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.

We're back with our resident grief counselor, Dr. Denise Mandel for a very special Valentine's Day episode about relationships after baby loss.

She answers questions like:

- How does grief affect intimacy and connection, both emotionally and physically?

- Do men and women really grieve differently?

- How do blame and guilt cause tension and resentment between parents, and is there a healthy way to work through those feelings?

- Can couples actually come out of the experience of losing a baby with a stronger relationship?

- ... and so much more!

Com back next week for part 2!

Dr. Denise is actively recruiting for a new baby loss support group, so if you've been looking for a kind, supportive provider and a warm, welcoming group of bereaved parents... this is your sign! Reach out to her at griefwithdrdenise@gmail.com.

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The information shared in this episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional mental health treatment or therapy. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts and think you may be a danger to yourself, please reach out immediately to the National Suicide Prevention hotline (800-273-8255) in the U.S. Linked here are additional resources in the United States. Linked here are resources for Canada. Linked here are resources for the U.K. Linked here are resources for Australia. Linked here are global resources. You are not alone.

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Things we talk about in this episode:

-⁠@griefwithdrdenise⁠ on Instagram

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As Long As I'm Living is a podcast about life, love, and laughter after infant loss. Judith and Alina are rebuilding Happier Ever After one day at a time despite excruciating grief and trauma and offering support to grievers of all flavors, but especially those who have lost a baby to SIDS, infant death, birth accidents, stillbirth, TFMR, ectopic pregnancy, or miscarriage.

This week we are continuing our interview with Rochel, the bereaved aunt of sweet Sophie and psychiatric nurse practitioner. In this episode, we talk with Rochel about her other loss experiences (she's sadly an experienced griever) and how she uses writing and other modalities to integrate the losses into her life.

We were caught off guard by how emotional this interview with Rochel was. Both of us felt seen and held in our grief in a way we rarely do with those who are not bereaved parents themselves... we hope you feel the same after this time with Rochel. Sending love to Sophie in the stars <3

If you missed Part 1 of this interview, you can listen to that here!

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If you are interested in working with Rochel, you can reach her via ⁠email⁠! Her Instagram is ⁠@rochelspang⁠.

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In this episode, we interview Judith's friend Rochel about the complexities of grief, particularly the loss of her niece Sophie. Rochel shares how she continues to build on her relationship with Sophie even after her death, and the ways in which she continues to celebrate her life.

You may remember Rochel from a post we shared on our stories a few weeks ago, part of which is shared below with Rochel's permission:

"Every year, I throw a party for my niece's birthday.

Tomorrow, Sophie would have been 11.

My sister once told me that with time and work, grief eventually moves from a constant heart-stabbing cry for what you've lost to an intermittent glow of gratitude for what you were blessed to have.

It has taken years for me to be able to access the embodied knowledge that Sophie's transition from this physical plan, was just that -

Her death was a shape-shifting..."

Listen to the episode to hear the rest.

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If you are interested in working with Rochel, you can reach her via email! Her Instagram is @rochelspang.

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